Unwanted Change

I am my own worst enemy

Years go by and she gets stronger every second

My skin splits, tearing me apart as my flesh stretches

I was afraid of who I was and not who I used to be

I am a piece of an unfinished puzzle

My shape, my background, my individuality varies

Whether I have three sides, dark color, or a piece of the bigger picture

It depends on where I think I belong

You’re not popular enough

You’re not cool enough

You’re not skinny enough

Well I’ve had enough of this stuff

Because I know that I am good enough

it took me awhile to figure that out you see,

I liked the likes on instagram

I followed the followers that I found myself following

For the fame...the friends

A little more make-up they said

Show more skin, Use the right caption, that’s not enough likes they said

I was fed up with all the comments and judgement

And lead my head to thinking I needed to change

For society to accept me for what I truly am not

Completely lost in this neverending cyclone

My body is no longer mine

I’ve changed so much and for what?

To have more friends?

To be seen as popular?

I wonder if it all was worth it…

All my time and energy spent

Trying to fit these pieces together that obviously do not match

I look in the mirror and I see a familiar face

Of course that face is not mine

It’s the face of my friend

The one that made me change

It is the eyes of all those that watched me die

It is the creation of society that I see

I need to rip that person apart

I need to restart this puzzle

I need to take this constant pain and

Push the pressure out that’s painted

My personality to portray a person that I know is not me

Let myself be

Sew the skin back together

Mend what I have destroyed

Let me be free